Xx we are weak, trapped in wide open spaces xX

This past week has been the most life changing and painful of my life. I've had to make more altering changes and deal with more emotions then i think i ever will. I let go of the person that i thought i would be with forever. I had to accept that feelings change and that if the feelings i had for my boyfriend were gone then it wasn't fair for the both of us to live a lie, aka me being with him because i wanted him to be happy and him thinking that i felt the same way. So i've cried more then i have ever in my life, i've never felt so bad for someone. But i know that the decision i made was one that was best for me. I wanted space, i wanted to be happy, i want HIM to be happy and not have me lie about how i feel.
Out of all honesty, through all the tears and worry i feel better. I feel like i've started writing on a new page, stepped out of my comfort zone. I think thats what i've needed.
My mom called me today asking how i was feeling. This was the night after everything had happened. I said i was trying to hang on and she immediately started talking about how dissapointed she was that i would miss school becuase of this. I found it very offensive.
I'm also sorry if i've been acting strange. I feel like i've been lashing out at a lot of people, it doesnt help when they have no clue what im freaking out about.
I'm getting through this slowly by the advice of a good friend. Take it one breath at a time.